October 23, 2014

I'm off today

Well, today is the big day -I fly back to Texas this afternoon! This trip came fast, like I knew it would. I always hate to leave B when the day comes, it makes going that much harder. It still feels kinda surreal to me, I imagine the whole trip will pretty much feel that way. When I get back its going to be insanity for the next week and a half, I'm trying to mentally prepare. If my flight is on time, etc. I should get home around 11pm on Monday night, Tuesday I'll have to go to the store, get the house cleaned, laundry, bake Adam's birthday cake, etc. as his birthday is Wednesday. Our carpet is being installed in the guest house on Wednesday which means we have to get the portions of the garage cleaned out where the carpet will go, and then of course celebrating Adam's birthday on Wednesday night! My mom comes Thursday morning and we'll need to run around to get the last minute stuff for Brennan's birthday party on Sunday. This is a crazy time, I'm trying to just take deep breaths and take a day at a time. Tomorrow I have to be up early for my shoot project which was the catalyst for this Texas trip, its going to be a busy few days and I'm tired already!

In house news, my curtain rods arrived and Adam and I got 1 of them hung, so, we have 2 to go and then all we're waiting on is the kitchen hardware! The office valences and shelves in the kitchen window turned out great -just what I had envisioned (love it when that happens!). The Winn Cali Cottage is coming together!

Well, I've got a long day of travel ahead and still have some packing to do so I'm going to get after it! Would appreciate prayers for travel and sanity (and my heart with the whole being back in TX/leaving bit) the next 10 days or so. :) Thanks for checking in! xo

October 20, 2014

more like myself

Well, its been a roller coaster  -this whole journey, I'm tired. :) (I'm also tired b/c I've had trouble sleeping lately...grrr, however it did pay of last night when it hit me we hadn't taken out the trash so I got up and did that (and then proceeded to get covered in ants, a story for another day). I must say though, these past few days are the most I have felt like myself in months. We finally had people over! Our house is no longer covered in boxes and I actually went to the store and made dinner! Success! It feels good to see the old me showing her face again. We tried new church #4 this weekend, what was neat was seeing several folks we knew, made that first time church experience not so daunting. And more importantly Brennan liked it! Its been hard watching my girl who was out the door on Sunday morning before Adam and I say "I don't want to go to church" when Sunday morning rolls around. Heart breaking, really. So, watching her enjoy herself was life giving to me, made this mama's heart happy. The 3 of us went out to brunch afterward and I think we've decided this is where we are going to land. This church doesn't check all our boxes, and its no UBC (understatement) but as far as what we've experienced so far, this makes the most sense for our family at this stage in our lives. Adam and I both agreed we could go to a different church every weekend and never find "it" or we could choose to make a place home and move on with our lives, we are going with the latter. It feels good to have some resolve and to know that Brennan is happy with our choice.

This weekend was nuts, our sweet realtor/friend had us over to her lovely home on Friday night and made the most amazing 5 (or was it 6?) course meal! I think I'm still full! Saturday we took Brennan to this amazing pumpkin patch that we haven't been to since 10/07 and then cousin Mike had us over to watch the Duck game and eat ribs/brisket that he spent all.day. smoking -delish!! Sunday was church and brunch, then I ran to the store to get some fixins to make dinner for our friends. We were celebrating our dear friend's new job and just enjoying having our long time friends in our new home. It felt good to hear Brennan laughing and playing with friends - oh how I've missed that.

Sorry I still don't have photos to share, my contactor is coming tomorrow to do the office valences and to install the shelves in the window in the kitchen. I received an email that my curtain rods have officially shipped so  -it shouldn't be too much longer now. :) I realized I never mentioned my latest business blog post here so, head on over HERE to see my sweet friend's miracle baby! More to come. xo

October 15, 2014

coming up for air

Today is the first time in a long time that I've woken up and thought "today might not be so crazy." Up until this point our time in CA has been absolute insanity, running from one thing to the next, trying to get this house in order, etc. I ran errands all.day. yesterday and accomplished a lot that was on my to-do list, today, I still have stuff to do but it feels like today could be the first normal day here in my new life. Lets see...we've been hanging things, cleaning things, organizing things, setting up things, painting things, etc.. All time consuming but all starting to pay off. The house is still not done but its getting there. The main things we're still waiting on: hardware for the kitchen, curtain rods to be delivered for the kitchen and living room, 1 more set of curtain rods for master (one set came jenkity so we had to send it back), custom built valences for the office, custom shelves for the window in the kitchen and laundry room doors. I ordered the carpet yesterday for the guest house, once that gets installed things will REALLY fall into place. There is so much stuff we need to put/set up in the garage apartment but we can't until the flooring is done. Several boxes, etc. are in the house just waiting to go in there -so, the count down is on! I can't wait to get that place functional and get it cleaned out. Poor Adam still doesn't have his office at work so he's been in my office and his stuff is...all over. Grrr. Its hard b/c he really doesn't have any place to call his own for work but I can't get my work space together while he's in it! We're all eager for his new office at APU to be ready even though I'll miss him being around more. We're getting there. :)

Things here overall are going okay, we're all still pretty homesick but I actually made dinner the other night and used the kitchen and it made me feel more normal. I'm ready to get back into a routine. Yesterday B said "I want to go back to Waco." She'll say that out of the blue pretty regularly and its like a dagger in my heart .every.time. I keep wondering how long it will take for CA to feel like home for her...well, and for me too. I love California, I've never ever not loved Pasadena and thought its one of the best cities in the world, but....it stopped being home to me a long time ago and so far that feeling hasn't come back. I know it will just take time. Waco is a unique place...its funny how so many people go there for one reason or another and think they won't stay beyond their initial reason for going (ie college, job, etc,) but they fall in love and don't want to go - I get it. I fly back to Waco next Thursday and I already don't want to leave it. Part of me thinks I shouldn't have taken the work assignment I was offered, that its too soon to go back, but part of me can't wait to land and feel normal again. I hate moving. Yesterday I was early picking B up so I parked in the pick up lane and I walked out to get her (I never park in the pick up lane and knew she wouldn't know to look for my car), I got back to my car and the crossing guard was yelling at me that she was going to call the police if I did that again -apparently you can't get out of your car in the pick up lane -oops. I wanted to scream "Do you see my TEXAS license plates?!! I'm new here and I'm still figuring it out!!" I wanted to get in my car and keep driving...all the way back to Waco and take B to her old school that never threatened me with the police for an innocent mistake. Sigh. Change is hard, we're all still adjusting and taking a day at a time.

Tonight we invited our neighbors from our 1 month rental house over, we told them they would be the first to "break in the porch" so that's happening. Normally I would want things a little more together before I entertained but the hostess of our group is heading back to New York shortly so it was now or never. I think its good though, forces me to get things whipped into shape and to fill my house with people, which is really how I like it. :) So, I've got my work cut out for me today. Thanks to those of you who keep checking in even though its been a pretty lame blog lately...I'm hoping that will change in the not-too-distant future. More to come. xo

October 4, 2014

We're IN!

Whew! Its been a CRAZY few days, I'm tired! We are officially moved in but living in chaos. Slowly but surely we're getting there and I think after today I'll feel a lot better. Today is should start looking a little more normal and we shouldn't be stepping over things and should be able to see some surface tops throughout the house. Its hard coming from almost 2700 sq ft to 1300, there are so many things that I love that just don't have a spot (#firstworldproblems). All in all we are loving it so far, it almost doesn't feel real. The neighborhood is SO quiet which is so nice! We've almost always lived in loud places and this is soooo peaceful. B is really loving her room and so far that is the space that is most put together. Well, I've got my work cut out for me today so I'm gonna get after it! Thanks for checking in! xo

September 26, 2014

I'm still alive....barely

Well, its been a week. I.am.so.tired. Pretty much all I've done all day every day is paint. I have a huge blister on my finger where the brush rests and my body is covered in paint. I scrub off in the shower every day and ye,t without fail, I've missed like 5 spots each time. Sigh. Today is probably the most optimistic I've felt in a loooooong time. The dry wall that got ripped out so the washer/dryer plumbing could go in got fixed today! They need to come out 1 more time to finish it up and then I need to re-paint it and the hardwood floors go in on Monday! Whew! We were supposed to move in tomorrow but the plumber couldn't come out until today to finish up so we just couldn't get it together in time. Honestly, I'm a little relieved. The house is so dirty and I'm looking forward to having some time to clean and get it ready for stuff to be moved in. Tomorrow I will finish painting a small section that is left of the kitchen, the baseboards in the master and I'll paint a part of the bathrooms that will need to get done before the electrician can install the new fixtures on Monday. Whew! I'm SO looking forward to the painting being done!! We finally hired a gardner and he starts Monday -and not a moment too soon! The sellers stopped the lawn service the second the house closed and we haven't had time to do anything about it so its an over-grown mess! I'm sure the neighbors aren't too thrilled with the new folks so far! All in all the house is really coming together and I'm so pleased with how its all turned out, its exciting to see the transformation. Unfortunately the plumbing situation was quite a bit more expensive that we had budgeted so no work will get done on the bathrooms -big bummer. I'll need to wait a while to dive into those projects b/c I know when the time comes, its going to be spendy! (why are bathrooms so much money?!!). After the floors in the office are done and all the light fixtures are installed on Monday, the only things left for what we're doing now is replacing the sliding doors with French doors and getting a new front door for the house (the current one is so ugly!). I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and I'm SO thankful. We are all ready to move in and get real life started, its been a long time coming. Thanks for checking in, I really hope to get some photos soon! xo

September 18, 2014

winn cali cottage update

Things finally feel like they are moving. After much back and forth it was discovered that certain products I wanted to use on the floors are no longer legal (if that is the correct word) in LA county b/c they are not environmentally safe. So, it was cancelling orders, finding new products, etc. SO, after much to-do 2 coats of primer are officially on the master and B's floors and the paint should get started later today or tomorrow, then it has to sit for 2 days before the sealer can go on. Ay yi yi. The a/c guy FINALLY arrived today! WHO HOO! So, by the end of the day today our house should actually be bearable to be in. Doug is plugging away at the ol' laundry closet and the cabinets got primed today for their paint! Progress! I think we're still another week out of actually moving in but the wheels are in motion. The alarm guy and the cable guy arrive tomorrow..another step in the right direction. Once all of this stuff is done we can move in but the projects continue. I'm still waiting for bids to replace the ugly jenkity sliding doors with french doors -that's the next item on the agenda (well, that and adding 2 light fixtures to the kitchen where they don't currently exist :). After all that, if there is money left in my little budget Brennan's bathroom will get some work done, sadly the master bath will have to wait a while. Too many things! I do feel like we're getting a lot accomplished on a little budget though, its exciting to see a cheap flip turning into something that feels like ours and is reflective of our (my :) style. I can't wait to get in our house!! Here in our apartment new renters are upstairs for the week and sadly, they have a 3 year old that likes to get up at 4am and run around so it sounds like a herd of elephants in our apartment. Sigh. Poor B isn't sleeping through it either so we had to complain -there is just no way we can function getting up in the 4 o' clock hour. Today he didn't start running until 5:30am so...progress? Needless to say, we're all counting the seconds until they move out this weekend. Ahh the joys of temporary housing. :) Well, I've been painting all morning so I gotta hop in the shower and go pick up B from school. More to come! xo

September 16, 2014

things

I woke up to Adam saying "Crap! I forgot to mail our taxes yesterday, oh, and I got a parking ticket for leaving my car on the street last night." I'm really hopeful that my day can only go up from here. Sigh. I also found out last night that B gets out of school today at 11:30am, what?!! Apparently its back to school night (why that necessitates a half day I don't know, esp considering B got out yesterday at 12:30pm as is the Monday school schedule). I swear, I feel like she's hardly in school and I may as well just leave her home with me versus the 40 minutes round trip 2x a day. Sorry, just had to vent there. Lets see, on tap...we've got the a/c guy coming back out but not until Thursday (and today the high is 104 -no biggie), I need to get the electrician out to do some work that was revealed in the inspection, I need the plumber to come back out to do some hook up stuff for the laundry under the house, my contractor couldn't find this certain product that I was told I needed for my floors, I found it online and it won't get here until Friday, and I have my first CA photo shoot this week! I'm taking lots of deep breaths, and spending lots of time in my car. This is where we're at today....a day at a time. Well, I've got 2 hours before I need to get B, better get going. Thanks for checking in. xo

September 15, 2014

running to stand still

To say its been nuts around here would be an understatement. It has seemed like days upon days of running around but only to feel like we're no further along than when we started. We own the house, yay! But the a/c doesn't work and its been 102 degrees here lately and getting the bids to get it fixed has been a major to-do. So, being at the house isn't so great these days. I officially finished painting B's room, the carpet got ripped up today so...there's progress. Doug officially started working on the laundry situation today so that's great! Its just been a lot of folks coming and going to give bids for this and that but without much actually happening. That's hard. The power got shut off on us the other day which was awful since a guy had just arrived to start working...thankfully they got us connected again rather quickly but it was one of those "nooooooo!!!" moments. Then yesterday, when it was 102 degrees the a/c in our apartment stopped working so we had to pack up all our stuff and move into a different apartment. This was NO fun BUT the new apartment is nicer and bigger with a king size bed!! Probably the best night sleep Adam and I have had in months. I'm just tired and feel worn out by life lately....I know, me and my first world problems but it just feels a tad overwhelming these days. AND on top of all of this, my busiest time of year is right around the corner, which under the best of circumstances about does me in so with all of this on top of it...I feel like I need to check myself in to a mental hospital preemptively. :/

I am officially in month 3 of living out of a suitcase, fingers crossed only for another week? I think that's all the news....we're just taking it a day at a time over here. I'll hopefully have some photos in the next week or so, we'll see. Thanks for checking in. xo

September 9, 2014

The Bridge

This weekend was really good, which was really needed. Friday we hung out with dear friends and made pizzas, Saturday we went to cousin Mike's new place and watched football (and ate pizza) all day and cheered the ducks onto victory! Saturday night 2 of our mi casa darlings spent the night at our (little) place as they were en route to Oregon. It was SO nice seeing Waco faces here in CA, warmed my heart cockles. :) Sunday morning I made a big breakfast and they headed out and we tried a new church! All of us are a little "eh" about this whole church search since we've left the past few weeks feeling discouraged and wondering if we'll find a good fit but this week...we didn't leave discouraged, we left encouraged and cautiously optimistic! Its a brand spanking new church, in fact, Sunday was their first service! There were probably at least 300 people there, it was crazy! Its called "The Bridge" and we are looking forward to going back this weekend to give it another whirl. It was so life giving to walk out and feel like maybe this was finally the place! And its kinda cool to think about being a part of something brand new and watching it grow. Anyhoo -just a good feeling. Then we spent the rest of Sunday afternoon with our friends at their in-laws; swimming and chatting and eating, so fun. I came home, rinsed off and then ran out the door to my friends for a little movie night. We sat outside on the most perfect night watching a movie on her projector against her garage - just lovely. All in all, a great weekend that left me filled up after weeks of feeling sad and missing Texas. I'm getting there.

In other news, we signed on the dotted line yesterday and bought our house!!! WHO HOO! It has been a LONG road of back and forth and I think there were MANY times along the way we all wondered if it was really gonna happen. We are so.thankful. to have a home and place to call ours again. We should get the keys tomorrow and then...its ON. I've already got appointments lined up to get things fixed/changed, etc. My sweet father-in-law is driving down to help us with our laundry situation and we're so thankful! It will be SO nice to have laundry inside the house and to have room for our side by side washer/dryer (most places down here (esp in our price range) only accommodate stackables). I went to the paint store yesterday (full disclosure: where I got the call that my daughter was waiting to be picked up from school b/c I forgot that on Mondays they have early dismissal!!!!) and got some samples so I can get to work! I can't wait to get in there and make it feel likes ours versus a cheap flip done by an investor. I've got big plans. :)

Well, that's the scoop 'round these here parts, this blog will likely be quiet for a bit as I'll be painting for a while. :) Before/afters to come!! Thanks for checking in! xo

September 3, 2014

temporary living, phase 2

Well, we're out of our lovely rental home and into a 2 bedroom furnished apartment...a TINY apartment. We're eating off of paper plates and have piles of clothes laying around b/c no one knows where anything is. Sigh. We're still waiting with bated breath to hear when we will actually close on our house but it should be next week!

We had a nice weekend, we got to spend some time with Doug and Kemi, and our friends had us out to their home for a lovely Labor Day BBQ. Last night some sweet friends invited us to the Hollywood Bowl -they had tickets to the LA Philharmonic, my friend packed a lovely picnic and we had a GREAT time. It still doesn't feel like real life yet, poor B has to get up early for school which is what keeps us somewhat on track around here! Adam doesn't have his office at APU yet so he's been working from home which we both like. :) His first day of class starts tomorrow so real life will settle in quickly, I think. All in all, not too much to report....we're kinda just living a day at a time since everything feels so haphazard and up in the air. Oh, I'm flying to Waco next month to do a project for a client and I'm doing some mini sessions while I'm there so if anyone reading this wants one -shoot me an email! Oct. 25th & 26th!

I think that's all the news for now, sorry nothing too exciting to share! xo

August 27, 2014

its ALMOST a done deal

Well, after MUCH back and forth we finally got some good news today -the seller of the house we're in escrow on has agreed to some of our terms! Hooray! It looks like this house will close after all and I think we're ALL thrilled! That was a LONG process! I'm so relieved, I can't wait to get in there!

Not too much to report other than that, we're in our last handful of days in this sweet rental home, B is plugging along at school and I'm not as emotional as last week so -a win on lots of fronts! I finally finished the wedding I've been working on...it was good for me. I needed a project, a distraction, and something familiar in these last few weeks, this wedding was a blessing to me in a lot of ways. It was also bittersweet because it was my last wedding in Waco (well, as a resident anyway) and it was in my church...I found myself getting nostalgic and homesick as I worked my way thru these images but it was cathartic too. Sigh. Moving is hard.

We tried a new church this past week, leaps and bounds better than our previous experience here but still a far cry from what we're after. The pastor was on vacation so I think we're in agreement it deserves another go. Today B and I are meeting some friends for ice cream after school, looking forward to that. :) Baby steps toward normalcy over here, thanks for checking in. Now, head on over HERE to see a wedding I just blogged! xo

August 21, 2014

house stuff

I get asked about the ol' house situation a lot so now is a good time for an update...since I actually have one! It's so funny to me that any one other than my mom still reads this ol' blog...but you do, so thanks for that, folks!

Okay, so, after 3 attempts we FINALLY got under contract with the 2nd house we've tried to buy here in CA. Well, the seller of this beloved little house is an investor who has never lived in the house, he just bought it, flipped it, and put it back on the market. The problem with this is, he has lots of properties like this and this house isn't his big priority -BUMMER for us. Timelines comes and go, and his motivation to do ANYTHING seems quite small to non-existent. Couple that with his realtor who seems to be eternally out of the office/on vacation and its just maddening getting any form of communication going. Well, my realtor has been casually showing me houses here and there "just incase" we can't get this deal closed. What's so crazy is I asked her to show me a new listing yesterday and she thought I was talking about a house 2 doors down (similar address so easy mistake), so, I showed up in front of the house and she was 2 doors down, so we saw both! What's crazy is I hated the house I wanted to see but was SO INTRIGUED by the house she thought I wanted to see! (I would have never even looked at it based on the HORRID photos online). Well, its a bank owned property that needs some serious work BUT, it has GREAT bones and TONS of potential. So, it got me thinking. I came home and told Adam about it, he was intrigued as well, but we are both still married to the idea of "our" house working out. Well, FINALLY yesterday the seller made SOME movement. Its looking like "our" house will end up working out but we're still waiting to make sure some things get fixed before we dive in. Its so nice having a "backup" plan though, just incase! Up until this point there hasn't been anything I would even consider making an offer on, so its nice knowing options exist (esp as we're getting down to the wire on our temporary housing situation).

So, hopefully in a matter of days we'll have a concrete plan - that would be great. A house just came up for sale on this beloved rental street of ours, sadly its listed at $799K -no can do. :( The neighbors keep telling me "did you see a house is for sale???" Um...yeah, I do SEE it but, a TAD out of our reach! Sigh...I wish!!! B has made friends on this street and its so great seeing her having fun. I let her stay up late last night b/c I couldn't bear to make her come inside and stop playing -being tired at school seemed like a way better option to me. :)

Things have gotten better as this week has progressed, but its been a tough one for me...the moving has definitely hit me and its been a big adjustment. I miss Waco every day, badly, but I love waking up to the southern CA sunshine and feeling the cool morning as I take B to school (which daddy will resume tomorrow :). Lots to be thankful for, but allowing myself to be sad and feel the weight of this move too, as one of my friends put it "if you weren't sad then that means you didn't truly LIVE in Waco." Agreed. xo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER, STEPHANIE!! 40 AND FABULOUS!!!

August 19, 2014

today was better

Well, I just did drop off #2 and today was a better morning, I didn't even cry! (probably b/c I'm all cried out after yesterday...3 hours straight will do that to ya). B said her first day was "good" -she said she didn't meet any one new and she played alone at recess but she said that was "okay" too. She went to her first gymnastics session yesterday and I think that was really good for her! They wanted to see what skills she has so they know which class to place her in. I think it made her feel really good that they said she was "so close to moving up to the next level" -they want her to take a couple more beginner classes and then they'll move her up to the next class which she is pumped about. I think its safe to say yesterday was way harder on me than her, I just keep praying she'll meet at least 1 new friend soon. Sigh. I also think yesterday was so hard for me b/c I'm also dealing with my own feelings and sadness about our move. Its been so nuts since we left Waco and I don't think I've had too much time to process my own sadness about leaving. I LOVED Waco and would have been happy to stay there forever, so I need to grieve and allow myself to feel sad and miss my friends, home, church, etc.. As good as it is to resume life with my "old" friends, there is still a lot of heartache there about leaving a place I love so much and that's okay. This move is a big adjustment for all of us, it was weird not having Adam home until around 5pm last night! I know that's how a lot (if not most) of how the world works, but we've never had traditional schedules like this so, its going to take some getting used to. I heard B tell Adam this morning "I hardly saw you yesterday" and I'm sure it feels like that! We're used to Adam being home all the time with us, even though he's in his office working he's still present and we both miss him.

In other house news...........we still have NONE. Ay yi yi, we STILL have nothing in writing from the seller about the "fixes" we requested so that is just maddening. We are really hopeful this sale will go through, but this waiting is pretty much torture. Meanwhile we have 12 more days in this house, its been a soft place to land and we're thankful for it, but also ready to move on. Life in the in between is just plain hard.

Well, I've been neglecting a wedding that I NEED to get after today so I'm gonna go do that. Thanks for checking in and for your prayers for B, means a lot. xo

August 18, 2014

that was hard

Its been a pretty busy time over here, we've been out and about a lot visiting with friends, taking B to explore LA, spending our evenings with our neighbors, etc.. We've been intentional about using these 2 weeks to really do things that are going to be harder to do once real life starts. Well, real life started today, and thus begins the "new normal." I just got back from dropping B off at school, that was really really hard. I thought the first day of kindergarten would be the hardest drop off, I was wrong. Typically Adam always comes to B's first day and our family of 3 does it together, well, today was Adam's first day of orientation which began at 8am so he couldn't make it  - I needed him. On the way to school I got a text from one of B's friend's from school in Waco (well, from her grandma, not from her) and it was a photo of Brennan's best friend and her other really good friend from school on their first day, I think it may have been a mistake to show B but I also felt like I was supposed to. It ripped my heart out seeing her 2 school friends in their uniforms on the first day, B should be with them smiling away and with no cares in the world, but instead she handed my phone back to me, with a hurting look on her face and I fought back the tears as I said "It looks like Alice got a haircut!" And B said "and a new backpack."

I hated the way B's new school did the first day, we hadn't met B's teacher and all the students are looking for a sign with the teacher's name on it and it was total chaos. We had the hardest time finding her teacher and it just felt awkward to not have a proper introduction. I went with B to her class (along with the whole herd of parents/students, etc.) and they had B sitting at a table with 2 boys and 1 girl but the girl wasn't there! I kept praying she would show up, how hard to not even have a girl at her table!! I knew I had to leave quickly b/c I could feel the tears coming and I didn't want to break down in her classroom. I kissed her on the cheek, told her I loved her and literally ran to my car where I collapsed into tears as soon as I got in. That was hard. I know kids are resilient, I know in a matter of time this will seem so silly and like a distant memory, but today, in this moment, I feel like I just left my heart in a strange place and walked away, and it kills me. I hate moving.

Yesterday we tried a new church, and it was just plain awful. I know we won't be able to replace UBC and I had no illusions coming here that we would, but I was reminded yesterday of just how unique UBC is and how that community was one of a kind. All 3 of us walked out discouraged and B said "I know where the perfect church for us is, in Waco." I agree, B, I miss it too. I hate moving.

Sorry, for not blogging for a while this post is a big downer, but I'm admittedly not in the best mental/emotional place at the moment...I'll get better, it will just take time.

I took photos of my loves on their first day, can't wait to have them both home and hear how everything went...big day of firsts in the Winn household today! Thanks for checking in, all, prayers for my girl today are more than appreciated. xo

 
 
 
 
 
 

August 9, 2014

Day 9

Well, we moved...and its been pretty crazy ever since. Leaving Texas was hard, like I knew it would be, but truth be told -the actual leaving was much easier on me then when we left Pasadena 6.5 years ago. I'm not sure what to attribute that to but I do think hiring movers and cleaners helped with a lot of the stress that comes with moving but the leaving friends/house/life part didn't throw me into the emotional tailspin that leaving CA did. Don't get me wrong, it was really hard and I don't ever want to do it again but it was bearable. I miss Texas every day but with each day I am reminded of how much I love California and am so thankful to be here. Hands down the hardest part of all of this is watching B. When my mom left on Wednesday that "vacation' feeling came to a quick end and her demeanor hasn't been the same. I miss my spunky, happy girl. :( I know it will just take time, change is hard...I get it. We went to my friend's in-laws house the other day, that was lovely. I've spent a lot of time with those folks and they welcomed B with open arms and she spent all.day.long. in their pool playing and it made this mama's heart happy. Yesterday we took her to the Getty, Adam had never been and I had only been once so it was fun to see the art and take in the gorgeous views of LA. When we got home I asked B if she wanted me to make her favorite pasta dinner or if she wanted daddy and I to take her to our favorite pizza joint, to my surprise she chose for me to make dinner -I think she wanted something familiar more than she wanted the meal, that girl never turns down pizza! She walked into the kitchen and said "it smells soooo good" and I said "does it smell like home?" and she said "yes." Sweet girl. She made 2 wishes with pennies at the Getty, she didn't tell me her wishes but said they were the same, I asked if they involved Texas and she said "yes." Sniff. I miss it too, B.

It really has been a crazy 9 days, we hit the ground running with house stuff -lots of inspections, vendors coming to the house to give bids, etc.. We are currently waiting for the sellers to respond to our list of requests as far as repairs...fingers crossed. It needs a new roof which we knew, but it also needs some major chimney repairs that are spendy! Yikes. Meanwhile I'm day dreaming about all the changes I want to make...most will have to wait but a few will get done before we move in and I can't wait to see the small transformations to make it "ours."

Our current living situation is a bit of a dream... I refer to this neighborhood as "the land of nod" -its almost magical here! The house is an absolute GEM and the folks on this street have been SO nice to us! We've had drinks with our neighbors several times already and they have brought over toys for B to play with, the neighborhood girls have asked B to play, etc. They keep saying how they're plotting to keep us on the street! I'm sold! Except...there is NO way we could afford to live here, boo! The house we're renting would sell for over a million easily...its so great. We're just trying to take in each day and be thankful for the month we get to call this place home. :) (B actually isn't a huge fan of the house (odd) and she says she likes our house that we're moving into better -glad to hear it! :). I think she's just eager to live in her own space, and I totally get that. As much as I love living here I am really really eager to have my "own" space and things surrounding me.  My girl and I are definitely two of the same in many ways.

Well, that's pretty much what's been going on with us, a lot of house details and checking out LA to show B all that it offers before she starts school. Tonight we're having dinner with friends so that will be great, really looking forward to that. Just diving back into our new life and trying to feel at home as soon as possible. Prayers for B would be so so appreciated. Thanks for checking in. xoxo